I sit on the porch
 The dark woods around me
 Insects chirping
 And listen
 To the distant sounds of the party
 Inside.
It is a party thrown for me,
 By my parents.
 A party I didn't want—
 Strangers crowding into our little house
 People I don't know
 Pinching my cheeks
 Muttering lies about
 "How she's grown!"
I escape to the woods
 Fleeing the lights
 And the cheerful, pointless chatter
 And crouch in a dark clearing
 Reveling in the silence
 And the dark.
A flash of movement
 And a wolf creeps into the clearing
 I freeze in fear
 Breath making tiny white puffs in the air
 Terrified to move
 Terrified to stay still.
The slim, strong, deadly animal
 Looks at me
 Dark, intelligent eyes.
 Like my own.
 We stare in silence
 Caught in the spell of the winter woods.
Then I whisper,
 "You're alone, too?"
 The beautiful, elegant head
 Seems to dip in a nod
 And then the wolf
 Proud, fierce, and yet gentle,
 Turns and vanishes into the shadows.
I walk slowly back to the house
 Returning to my party
 Where I wasn't missed.
 Before I go inside
 I turn
 For one last look.
 Hoping somehow
 She had come to say goodbye.
The trees are still and empty.
 Disappointed, I reach for the door
 And then stop—
 A sound from the forest.
 A long, lonely howl.
 It starts out rough
 But spirals up into a sweet, sorrowful note
 That sounds like tears
 And ends.
I think of the wolf
 Alone in the forest.
 I face the trees and whisper,
 "Me too."

Charlotte, North Carolina

