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Moving-New-Home

Finding Home

After moving to the U.S. from Vietnam, Hoa struggles to adapt Hoa fidgeted nervously with her brown paper lunch bag containing her turkey-and-cheese sandwich, small rounded carrot sticks, and container of applesauce that came in the drab, wrinkled packaging of a school lunch. She glanced around, feeling some kind of dread inside eat away at her stomach, her hands trembling and clutching the bag ever tighter. She was in a new, unknown land, surrounded by new, unknown people who spoke a new, unknown language. She surveyed the cafeteria, stuffed full with bodies and chaos and noise that made her feel absolutely overwhelmed. She kept her head low and eyes pinned to the floor, focusing on just moving one foot after the other, right after left, not quite sure where she was to go. She didn’t know anyone, and being the shy person she was, she shuffled over to an empty table at the back of the room and began to nibble at her food. Hoa had come from Vietnam, a country in Asia that seemed to her to have almost nothing in common with the country called the U.S.A. where she’d moved only weeks before. She used to live with her mother, father, little sister, and older brother in a small village near the woods. Every morning, she and her siblings would pack a bag of good homemade food and walk down the dirt road lined with flowered trees that blew in the breeze, mixing in with the aroma of soil and grass. They’d arrive at a small schoolhouse and sit in class with children from their village and others around the area. Hoa had had a kind teacher with warm skin and a smile that ignited her eyes, who would read stories to the class all day when they did well on an assignment. She had also had friends, people with whom she could laugh and feel safe and comfortable. Of course she knew that her home country was far from perfect, but that place was her home. When she’d had it, her life there had just been routine. It had seemed normal and not at all special. But now, she wanted more than anything to have it back. Tears welled in her eyes, which had grown hot and puffy. Now she lived with only her mother and little sister on a crowded street lined with small, squat houses that all looked identical to one another. She was shaken gruffly out of bed in the morning, shoveled down some breakfast, and then stuffed herself into a bus near-bursting with people—loud, talking people, who smelled of breath and sweat. After a lurching, nauseating bus ride, she would be sucked out the door by a wave of kids and washed inside a big confusing maze of hallways, classrooms, textbooks, and strangers. Her teacher seemed dry and humorless, hadn’t yet made any effort to help her with English (not that she wanted anything to do with their clumsy, blundering language), and told the class that she had moved to America from China. Hoa couldn’t really understand the words that people said around her, and she couldn’t speak like them either, but she had gathered what he’d said well enough and knew very well that he was wrong. She’d come from Vietnam, not China. And, unlike in Vietnam, she had no friends. She inhaled a shaky breath and then stuffed a baby carrot in her mouth to try and push back the wave of homesickness that arose within her. One of the only things she had left from her home in Vietnam was her name, Hoa, which translated into English as “blossom” or “flower,” and her mother said she may have to lose that too, change her name to a normal American one that people could pronounce easily. Suddenly, the despair seemed like too much to take. Vision blurred, Hoa located a door that she knew led out to the playground. As she walked slowly over toward the entrance to the outside, pushing it open, she felt invisible, like maybe if she were to just disappear right then, no one would ever even know. A cool breeze greeted her when she stepped onto the playground. It smelled of plants and soil, like a small pocket of home that she could never leave behind, but was at the same time tinted with the odor of gasoline, like a reminder that she was very, very far from that place she held so dear. Hoa closed the door with a click, her steps transforming to a run. She ran past where the playground ended and was replaced with rolling hills and fields dotted with wildflowers. Past where a stream divided the school’s property from that of the people who lived next to them, and even a little farther still. As the wind rushed through her hair and the landscape soared by her, Hoa felt as though she could just keep running and running until the end of time, hardly even noticing as everything flew by, leaving it all behind her. Finally, her breaths coming in wild gasps, her legs collapsed beneath her. The sun’s glow bathed everything in a golden light. Trees across from the valley where she sat swayed in a gentle breeze that ruffled the daisies and wildflowers scattered about. The day seemed all around cheerful, as though everything felt the need to mock her in her misery. Bright light from above caused her to squint, as though the sun’s glare were reflected back through her own gray eyes, pooling with tears of homesickness, sadness, and anger. Anger at this horrid, loud, stinky, chaotic place. At her parents, for getting into that fight that had divided her life and family. The tears flowed silently down her cheeks as fluffy white clouds blew over until her eyes slowly fell closed. Hoa just sat there, reality slowly creeping up on her. For a minute, she had been caught in that wild fantasy of running in

Green

After moving from a small town in Canada to a big U.S. city, Gale struggles to adapt Gale was a late sleeper. She had always been. It was just her way of responding to the weekend. But for some reason, she felt as if she wanted to get up now. And what made it odder was that it was the last day of summer vacation. Typically, she would have crammed as much late-sleeping into the day as she could, but no. She was getting up right now. Gale rolled out of bed (getting her blankets tangled around herself in the process) and fell to the floor, letting out an involuntary groan. She sat up and looked around. Her room was clean and tidy as always. On one side of the room there were two windows, both of them a quarter of the way open, and beside her bed was a green crate that served as a bedside table. A few feet away from the foot of the bed, mounted on the wall, was an ugly white wire shelf. On it were all sorts of things, from kindergarten artwork to baseball trophies. Gale turned on her fan. Summers in Houston could be hot. She then pulled on a T-shirt and jeans and yanked her long black hair into a ponytail. Gale thumped down the stairs, clearing the last four in a massive leap and checked the breadbox for sliced bread. It was the only kind she would willingly digest. “Gay-o,” yelled Violet, Gale’s twoyear- old sister, as she charged into the kitchen. She wrapped her arms around Gale’s legs, preventing her from moving. Gale, ignoring her human barnacle, pivoted and grabbed a jar of peanut butter. Early on, she had learned that it was no use asking her sister to stop. Violet would just laugh maniacally like a tiny Disney villain and hold tighter. Siblings were odd that way. Gale layered her peanut butter about an inch thick on her toast. She had a bit of a peanut butter problem. She bit into her toast and instantly found her teeth stuck together. After finishing her toast, she licked the peanut butter off of her fingers to make sure they were clean. Gale pried her sister off her legs and dashed outside to enjoy the warm summer air and flopped down onto the grass. She missed her old home. Gale hated living in Houston. She just wasn’t a city person. They used to live in British Columbia, Canada. “They” being Gale, her mom, and her dad. Violet hadn’t been born yet. Her home had been in a small town by the sea. It rained all through the year and never snowed. But she loved her old home. She remembered the chipped brown paint of the house, the front door with the big silver knocker, and most of all, the big balcony where she used to imagine that she was a wildlife photographer. She had always been more secure with animals than her friends. She was different from them in that. While they all dreamed of being astronauts and police officers when they grew up, all she wanted to do was to be romping through the woods with her friends, the animals. They had lived on the outskirts of town. Their house had been surrounded by pines. Back on the west coast, conifers were everywhere. They were lush green due to all the rain. Green, the color of the docks with all the boats moored to them. Green, the color of the sea. Green, the color of the grass on their lawn after a rainstorm. Green was everything back there. She needed to be walking through the woods, rain pattering on her hood, legs soaked. She remembered her friends, the gray jays. Whenever she went outside, she would bring a couple of nuts in her pocket in case she saw one. Then, she would hold out her hand; they would land on it and start poking around. They would pick up the nut and fly away. Fly away. They would fly away just like she flew away to Houston. She had always preferred sailing. Gale’s family had owned a small canoe. By the time she was eight, she knew all the strokes and could paddle effectively. By the time she was 10, she was allowed to go out on the ocean by herself. She would bring her fishing rod, but always spincast with it. She refused to learn any other technique. Back then she had a routine. Mondays, Tuesdays, and Wednesdays were for homework. Thursdays were free. Fridays were for baseball practice and Saturdays were the games. But her favorite days of all were Sundays. Fishing days. In the morning, Gale and her family would go to church. Afterward, she would dash outdoors, untie the boat from the dock, and paddle out as far as she could. Then she would start fishing. She could almost smell the salty air, feel the paddle in her hands, see the fish swimming in the murky water. That was her old life. “Gay-o”! yelled the unmistakable voice of Violet. She stopped when she saw the expression on Gale’s face. “Miss home?” asked Violet, wrapping her pudgy arms around her. “Yeah,” said Gale. “Yeah, I do.” Sascha Farmer, 12Northampton, MA Oishee Sinharay, 11Pennington, NJ

The Cedar Bracelet

A girl needs the courage to face a new home and a new school all the way across the country I only felt like myself when I was listening to stories. It was no surprise, really. Words were my sanctuary. I had never been good at making real friends, but those in books had always welcomed me with open arms. I had lived in the same town my whole life, and the friend I had had since preschool had moved away the previous summer. We hadn’t seen each other since. Books were different. They never moved away. They always stood beside me. My cousin was my only real friend. She was six years older than I was, the kind of person to whom words come as easily as breath. She always told me stories. We used to sit outside on the porch, which wrapped around the back of my house, in the sky-blue hammock that hung between two of the posts. When I was smaller and too young to get into it on my own, my cousin would lift me onto it, nearly tossing me off again when she got on herself, causing the hammock to sway back and forth like a ship on a stormy sea. We sometimes took ice-cream sandwiches outside, or bags of pretzels, or carrot sticks, and we’d munch on them and watch the butterflies and bees dart among the brightly colored flowers of the garden. On windy days, we’d bring a kite and watch the breeze play with the kite tails as it dipped and dived through the air. She used to tell me stories: fantastical tales of other worlds which could only be reached through mirrors, of lands of eternal snow and ice and sun. She would describe the blaze of a sunset over a restless sea and the patterns of the stars seen from the highest tower of a castle perched on the tip of the world. Sometimes, she read to me from books with bright illustrations painted on the covers. But usually, she would tell stories that didn’t come from a book. These were the ones that spun images of fantasy in my mind—of a princess in an azure gown with a bronze-plumed bird perched on her hand, or a forest-green dragon reclining on a vast horde of treasure, or a wizard in starry robes watching a phoenix circle in the sky. There was a land among the clouds where only fairies lived, one story began. An elven girl once floated on a raft down a river of light that ended in the stars, went another. The daughter of the king did not plan on being trapped in the tower for long, began a third. These days were perfect. They were the times I savored, the moments I wished could last forever. But nothing can. It was June. I had turned 12 a few days before. We were moving, my parents said, to the other side of the country. They said I would make new friends, that our new home would be even better than where we lived now. But my cousin was different. I knew no friend could ever replace her. *          *          * We sat in the hammock as we had so many times, with the wind swaying us back and forth and sunlight playing on butterfly wings as they fluttered through the flowers. My cousin told me that she’d be going to college soon. She said she’d write. I knew she would. But no words could change the miles that would stretch between us, a void wider than the sea. She seemed to sense my thoughts, because she said, “Penelope, have I ever told you about the girl who went on a quest to find a feather but found something much more important?” I shook my head. “No? Well, in a far-off land where trees speak in the language of wind, where magic is more natural than earth and sea and sky, there was an elven girl with moon-black hair who was afraid of change, of the shifting future and the uncertainty of what would come next. There was loneliness and fear in that world as much as in this one, and for her, she had a name to lay upon it. For all the elves go on a quest when they turn 13, and she knew hers would change her life forever. “Her 13th birthday dawned on a sunny day, with bluebirds and orioles singing sweetly in the trees. And she learned her quest would be to find the silver feather that the phoenix Avis left when she was reborn from fire on the top of Blue Mountain, whose cliffs reared high above the clouds. “The elven girl embarked on her journey, as tradition decreed. She scaled Blue Mountain by way of a forgotten road. She faced ancient monsters, outwitted cruel thieves, and went long days without food or drink. After the sun had risen and set more times than she could count, she reached the fabled place. She looked high and low, but she found no silver feather, nor any sign that it had ever been. All there was, was a bracelet made of cedar beads, one of which was shaped in the form of a dragon. She took it back with her, but she knew she had failed. “When she returned home, ashamed and uncertain, she was greeted by the sage of her village. The girl told him of her failure, expecting to be rebuked or worse, but the old man simply smiled. “‘Why do you cry, child?’ he asked, and to the elven girl’s dismay, she realized tears were indeed running down her cheeks. She bit her lip and tried to keep her voice from trembling. “‘Because I have failed my family.’ “The sage laughed, a low, husky sound, like the rustle of dry rushes on a riverbank. ‘You have found what you needed most,’ he