Mae Trillian has always lived a fairly simple life. Nothing brought her more pleasure than perfect, small simplicities—a tall glass of cold, crystalline water full of chinking ice cubes, the noise of a lead pencil as it scratched the surface of a crisp sheet of paper. The sound of the wind amongst a forest of stately trees and the perfect poise of a single flower as it makes its incredible journey from tiny seed to glorious blossom brought the greatest joy to Mae’s heart. That, and of course the delightful thing called writing where one can pour out one’s soul onto a piece of paper. Where intricate worlds are created by the touch of a pencil’s tip, and characters’ lives unfold into brilliant stories of intrigue and romance. Sighing, Mae sat quietly on a wooden stool that stood before the large bay window dominating the eastern wall of her minute kitchen. Her delicate image was reflected in the window’s translucent pane; her thin lips were slightly parted and moved as though she were speaking, although no noise escaped her mouth. Tawny curls spilled down across a pale forehead, where slender brows arched above eyes of the deepest emerald. She silently watched the street before her quaint home, where children played; their shouts of joyous laughter filtered in with golden rays of luminescent sun. And to be but a child,. Their cares light as motes of dust Drifting silently, only to filter out of All existence The poem escaped the young woman’s lips; her bright eyes softened as her mouth slowly formed a tender smile. A salty breeze drifted in through the partially opened window; the sea’s crested waves crashed onto the pebbly beach merely a ten-minute walk from Mae’s diminutive home. Morning had always fascinated Mae Still smiling slightly, she stood and moved across the kitchen’s tiled floor to her countertop: a beauteous mosaic of aquamarine, turquoise, and cerulean pieces forming the image of a rising wave. She ran one hand over the magnificent icon and brushed a stray ringlet from her eyes with the other. The morning light brought the fabulous colors to life; Mae could almost taste the salty ocean water and hear the crash of the waves as they broke onto the jagged rocks with a powerful grace. Morning had always fascinated Mae. The watery sunlight slanting across her scrubbed kitchen tabletop and the dappled patterns it made as it shone through the trees. She adored the birds’ joyous songs, exulting in the beginning of another splendid day. No matter how divine the moon’s silver gleam could be, or how perfect the glistening stars, morning was a time of birth and renewal. Reaching for the kettle, Mae ran the water from her creaky, silver faucet. Her favorite mug, a saffron-colored dish splashed with shapes and patterns of every color of the rainbow’s spectrum, stood beside a battered, corduroy knapsack, festooned with key chains and bright patches. That bag was Mae’s pride and joy, a collection of souvenirs that painted a picture of her rich, young life. Moving away from the sink, Mae carefully sliced two pieces of freshly-baked cheese-bread, buttering them with cream held in her great-grandmother’s cut-glass butter tray. Taking a quick glance at the violet clock that hung above the fridge, Mae speechlessly willed the water to boil quickly It was already ten o’clock, and now that she was shaken from her early morning reverie, she wanted to leave as quickly as she possibly could. The beach would become crowded around noon, when young families, happy couples, and noisy groups of friends would break the morning tranquility with their shouting and laughter. Not, Mae thought, as she carefully wrapped her breakfast in wax paper, that laughter is a bad thing. It is in fact a thing of great beauty and delight! But peace and quiet is a rare gift these days, and one must learn to take advantage of it when they can. As the kettle began to shriek, Mae pulled herself away from her rambling thoughts and unplugged it as quickly as she could, pouring the steaming liquid into her mug. Dropping an Earl Grey tea bag into the water, she slipped her feet into a pair of worn leather sandals and grabbed her breakfast, a notebook, and a sharpened pencil, jamming all but her mug into the corduroy bag. Slinging it over her shoulders, she stepped out of her kitchen’s side door and strolled across her lawn. Waving at Mrs. Winkleby, who smiled at her from her rocker perched on the woman’s large, wrap-around veranda, Mae turned left and continued to walk towards the beach, sipping her tea as she went. Arriving there, she noticed that few others had pulled in—ten o’clock was still early for those who spent their summer in these parts. Kicking off her sandals, Mae proceeded to walk the beach barefoot, as she headed towards her usual spot down the west end. There, the dunes were plentiful, and their dips and crests provided shade and a pleasant seating area. Settling down at the foot of a mighty dune, Mae leaned against a bleached piece of driftwood and languidly stretched out, wiggling her toes amongst the millions of tiny, golden grains. The air smelled pleasantly of salt and the gulls’ raucous cries somehow pleased her, as they circled over top the water, hunting for their breakfast. Taking another sip of tea, Mae carefully slid her leather-bound notebook from the bag, and held the pencil carefully between three fingers, poised just above the blank page. The day was young and bright, and full of potential. Taking a deep breath, Mae settled back and looked at her page. And she began to write. Julia Soderholm, 13Rockwood, Ontario, Canada Annalise Nurme, 12Chestnut Hill, Massachusetts
January/February 2006
Truth-Telling
We were lying in a circle, curled up on a den of sleeping bags, pillows and blankets. Popcorn and candy wrappers were scattered all around, remnants of that night’s feeding fest, while we had, oblivious to all else, watched our movie selection, comprised mostly of films featuring Orlando Bloom. But now the TV was silent, and most of us had migrated off the couch and living room chairs to our sleeping bags. We lounged around, nonchalant, waiting for the quietest part of night when the hostess’s brother was sure to be asleep. Some of us had iPod headphones screwed into their ears, the other end handed obligingly to the person next to them, heads bobbing in unison, looking in the almost-darkness like some sort of musically inclined two-headed animal. Some of us were eating the last remainders of candy, salvaged from the hostess’s dog when the coffee table had been tipped over during a particularly dramatic reenactment of Pirates of the Caribbean. The said dog was snuffling inconspicuously in the corner, nosing hopefully in an empty pizza box, looking for that last overlooked piece of pizza. We were quiet for some time, except for the occasional whispered conversation. We looked at the clock perched on top of the TV. 10:47 PM. The hostess nodded, and, in the long-continued tradition of sleepovers, we rearranged our sleeping bags into the designated circle for a game of Truth or Dare, for our first one had been more or less decimated, as we had all branched off into our own little sub-circles, centered on the lucky one with the iPod or in current possession of the candy bag. It was the time for us all to spill our guts or suffer the wrath of a Dare But, irresistibly, the sleeping-bag planets being orbited by frizzy-haired, tired-eyed (but of course no one would admit it) moons, were being drawn by gravity into a larger circle focused on the last precious remains of popcorn, serving as our sun in our own personal galaxy. “So . . .” someone said, balanced precariously on top of a small Mount Everest made of sleeping bags and pillows. So. We all knew what that one little syllable meant. It was Circle Time, where, as most of the girls in the world who have ever partaken in a slumber party knew, it was the time for us all to spill our guts or suffer the wrath of a Dare. Of course, now that we were at the (we thought) great age of thirteen, we rather scaled back on the Dare. First of all, there just weren’t very many sufficiently mortifying things left to set for each other to do. Most of us had friends who were boys now, some of us even had boyfriends, so getting dared to call so-and-so wasn’t such a big deal anymore. And, since we were virtually locked in the living room, running outside at two o’clock in the morning in one’s underwear singing “Row, Row, Row Your Boat” at the top of one’s lungs was not particularly practical either. We had also almost entirely abandoned the age-old question, “Who do you like?” as well. Sure, it was always interesting to know, but in our tight circle of friends, most of us knew already, and those who didn’t were probably going to get around to asking about it one of these days, but for the most part it was not such a tantalizing question as it had been when we were seven. Instead, we started off with a round of “What do you fear most?” and had to resort to using the Magic Manatee somewhat earlier than intended, (usually we bring the manatee out when we get to Most Embarrassing Moment) to stop us all from interrupting each other and waking the parents. (In case you have never heard of the Magic Manatee, it is a stuffed manatee attained at Sea World nearly eight years ago, which serves as a method to acquire some semblance of order. The basic principle is this: You can’t talk unless you are holding the manatee, and if someone would like to add something to the discussion, then they must wave their hand wildly in the air, frantically mouth “manatee,” and be able to catch the marine mammal when it is tossed in their general direction. If one fails to subscribe to this rule, and interrupts anyway, that unlucky soul will be barred from our circle and made to go to bed before seven o’clock in the morning.) We whispered late into the night. Dragging in sea anemones, basic principals of philosophy, theology, and physics, that math teacher from sixth grade, that incident regarding the ice cream, the so-called scandal from fifth grade, in which he pushed her from the swings when it was widely believed that she had a crush on him, where we are, and where we want to end up, government conspiracies involving Area 51 and where we go when we die, we all managed to weave it into our own story, between the trivial and terrific, we told the tale of our friendship, our hopes and dreams and fears from the past years, knowing that it would last for many more, but when the first rays of dawn shown on the horizon, even the most steadfast “I’m-staying- up-all-night-“ers fell asleep. And the last question we asked was indeed, “Who do you like?” After all, we were not as grown up as we thought we were. Katie Sinclair, 13Manhattan Beach, California Mona Cao,13Freehold, New Jersey
The Swim Test
“It’s going to be cold,” laughed Riley. “I’m warning you, when I took the swim test, I almost froze. They had to defrost me.” “Thank you for sharing that wonderful piece of moral support with me,” I snapped. Riley had been coming to Camp Walton’s Grizzly Lodge for seven years now, since she was five. It was my first year. All the first-year campers had to take the swim test, to be able to swim outside the four-feet line and to go waterskiing and wakeboarding. I definitely had to take that swim test. I had no worries about the test until I met Riley (actually, only twenty minutes ago). I was on the swim team at my school, so the four laps would be a piece of cake. (So I’m in the slowest lane; I can still swim, can’t I?) And treading water for thirty seconds would be no problem, since I was a goalie for my school’s water polo team. (It was my first year, making me the worst goalie, so I had to have more training, but everyone at Walton’s doesn’t know that, do they?) We walked down to the edge of the lake, along with Riley’s little sister, Quinn. Riley was silent because she knew she’d scared me about the whole swim test thing. Pools were heated. Lakes weren’t. Finally, as we neared the opening to the sandy beach near the lake’s edge, I said, “Riley, it can’t be that bad. I mean, they wouldn’t make us swim in forty-degree water. Your memory must be malfunctioning.” “Then take it from me,” said Quinn, talking for Riley “I only took it four years ago. The lake is cold. You’ll die as soon as . . .” “I’m warning you, when I took the swim test, I almost froze” “Quinn, we are here for moral support,” interrupted Riley, shushing her sister. “Do not frighten her to death.” “No, that’s what you’re here for,” grumbled Quinn irritably, but Riley didn’t answer as we entered through the small gate between the overgrown bushes. Everything looked normal; the sand was fine-grained, yellow, and easily got between your flip-flop and your foot. The lifeguard, Brian, and another bored-looking boy of about fifteen were manning the swim area. Brian was sitting cross-legged on the diving board. And beyond him, the water looked anything but deadly. It was deep azure and sparkling as the sun’s rays danced on it. Everything looked fine to me. Upon seeing us, Brian jumped up and exclaimed, “Finally, people are here! What are your names?” I said, “Samantha, or Sam.” Riley answered, “We are here to hold Sam’s towel and attempt to save her when she dies of hypothermia.” “Moral support?” muttered Quinn. Brian smiled. “Don’t listen to them. Just swim four laps, there, back, there, back,” he indicated with his clipboard, “and then tread water for thirty seconds.” “Good luck!” said Riley. “We’ll cheer you on if you start to develop swimming difficulties.” “I told you, I was on swim team, and a water polo goalie,” I said, stepping out of my shorts and T-shirt to reveal a blue bathing suit with hibiscuses all over it. “How hard can this be?” If only I knew. My first step into the water wasn’t that bad. My toes kind of curled back, like when you step into the shower and the water isn’t quite warm yet. Then my next step brought me underwater to my knees. My calves tensed. That was kind of cold. A shiver ran up my spine. Then I stepped further, up to my waist. My legs were cold. Oh, they were cold. The next step brought me considerable shock and pain. I was all the way up to my collar. It was as if a giant eel wrapped around me and shocked cold waves all through my body. I was frozen. My breath came out short and ragged. I could feel my blood temperature dropping rapidly. I turned around and mouthed soundlessly to Riley and Quinn. What I meant to say is, “How did you survive this? I’m going to freeze! Pull me out now, before it’s too late!” but I guess my voice box wasn’t connected to my lips. “I can’t help you now,” said Riley, as if she understood me perfectly. “Just get it over with is the best advice I can give you. Go on.” I nodded, turned around, kicked my feet out from the muck I was standing in, and was off. I have swum in swim meets before. You dive off a diving board and keep your head underwater. You move your arms and legs as fast as you can to get to the other side. That was not how I swam in the lake. I kept my head above water, swinging my arms in front of me as if to grab the water and pull myself along. I tried kicking like in freestyle, but it ended up being a cross between a scissor kick and a breaststroke kick, a sort of jab at the water that I repeated again and again to get myself to the other side. When I reached the other side, I was shivering uncontrollably. I was afraid to go back across, but it seemed I had no other alternative. Halfway across the second lap, my chest started to seize. I felt like the giant eel was back again, squeezing my ribs together and allowing no air to come out. I had to stop dead. I gasped for air. Panic was filling me, taking the place of all my energy. It weighed in my stomach like a cold lump of steel, dragging down not only my physical body but my sanity and chances to get to the other side. Fear was coining in now, filling my mind with horrible possibilities, and taking over that part of my brain that makes decisions. Fear was the blackness growing at the edges of my brain, eating me away. My body